It didn’t take more than a month until I had a new project going. A person who during this time became one of my best friends, Wez Wenedikter (WAR Music, formerly Wrong Again Records), saw to it that I wouldn’t stay out of business for too long. He hooked me up with Johan Reinholdz (Andromeda) and after a few meetings (with red wine and pizza) there was a new band in my life. We wanted a intense drummer and recruited Matte Modin (Defleshed, Dark Funeral, Sportlov), entered the Abyss studio (Tommy Tägtgren part) in November 2001 and released the one and only album, “Deus Deceptor”.
I truly love this album, sure. Still, sometimes I find it a bit on the "stiff side" of things. It's maybe a bit too "mechanical" for my personal taste. Anyway, it kicks ass in most of the songs. We even recorded an old Carnage song (that was never released by Carnage..supposed to be the 4th song on the debut demo "The day man lost", yet it never turned out tight and so on), yet it was only featured as bonus track in Japan and Korea. It sounds excruciatingly alike the original. Or at least - it's twice as fast in the Non Exist version! Check it out here! As for my vocals on this album I feel kinda divided in half really. The effort feels very uneven at times (btw, did I ever tell you that I'm my own worst critic?), a lack of enthusiasm or just resignment in general (this year was a bad one, especially during the time of recording) shining through in what I tried to accomplish? It's interesting in a way - what's in your mind rears its ugly head, especially if it's heartache worries (= my wife left) or just a typical "wash-the-self-confidence-down-the-drain" kinda thing (had to leave Arch Enemy the year before) etc.
Unfortunately, as for Non Exist, well it all kind of faded away. Still, who knows – maybe we’ll record a follow up, someday..somehow? We've been in touch talking about it. The drummer is a "big issue". We wanted someone close by to rehearse with properly.
Maybe a sequel to "Deus Deceptor" will see the light of day (or dark of night) - the question is: will it still be the same? The same kind of energy, passion and possible catchiness?? Well, it's up to us to make this happen so that we will all be able to find out.
A funny thing occured a few years ago, that I just have to tell ya. Some club owner in the US (guess it's in Indianapolis?) actually took the name and some of the artwork from the album and designed his/her club with, haha. Maybe there's even a "Eaten Alive" burger on their menu?! Check it out, there's a pic of it here! It's so damn flattering..in a way (or two)..haha :D
Note: all of a sudden there's a band from Berlin, Germany called Non Exist (and I can't blame them really, most band names seem to be taken already, so let's go for the left overs shall we..)! Wow!! Check em out at www.non-exist.com
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